Top 500 Toxic player hardware banned – issues apology

Top 500 Toxic player hardware banned – issues apology

Blizzard recently hardware banned a toxic player. He was Top500 and while extremely talented, he did have a personality problem. Constantly being foul-mouthed recent posts about his performance and behavior in the game got the attention fo the community and Blizzard as well.

I would like to start this post by saying that I am sorry. I am sorry to Ster, I am sorry to DesroW, I am sorry to J3sus and Amourettie and I’m sorry to everybody that I have left a negative feeling on. My names Evan I’m 17 years old and I live in Toronto Canada. I have recently been hardware banned from Overwatch and I really had it coming. I am honestly not a bad person and I never connected how others feel to how I’ve felt at a time. Before I played Overwatch I never really did anything I didn’t have an idea of what I wanted to do, where I wanted to go in life. But in November of 2016 I first started playing Overwatch. I instantly fell in love with the game and have been spending 10 + hours a day on this game. Just recently I realized how close I really am to competing professionally and learning more about myself as a human being in terms of how I interact with people. I use this game for everything, I wake up every morning and have something to look forward to. The days where I just want to lock myself in my room and do nothing I will always have my friends on Overwatch and the game itself to distract me of all the horrible things in my life. For the people that I have been toxic to I would like to say 1000 times that I am sorry. Humans like to feel good and just reflecting on my actions after I’ve lost everything makes me sick. I love the idea of eSports and I want to work really hard to achieve it

but those days where my emotions get me best of me I always try to joke about it but sadness just turns into anger and I can’t sweep my emotions under the rug anymore. I am still a kid and I am prone to mistakes and I never wanted this day to come but maybe it’s good for me. I’ve invested so much time into Overwatch and now that I’ve lost it a realize how empty my life is. I have trouble sleeping and doing anything because there’s no point anymore, I have nothing to look forward to. So to Blizzard I am sorry but I ask from the bottom of my heart, please don’t take this away from me I use this game to escape the horrible reality that is my life to just drain out all my thoughts and play this game. I will take any other action but I live to compete with my team and I have let them down and I now realize how many people care for me. I promise that nothing negative will ever exit my mouth I have learned from this experience and it’s something that I could never imagine would impact me this much. Once again I am extremely sorry to everybody who I’ve hurt I took all my imperfections in my life out on you and just being a kid with such a heavy amount of emotions got the best of me. Thank you. If anybody wants a personal apology or wants to discuss anything with me I’d be more than happy to. Discord me at nme#4710 (caps sensitive) https://youtu.be/bo8ImPZ3bF0